Brace Yourself Folks, a storm is a Brewin'.
And if we are being honest here...How often are we even able to brace ourselves before we get capsized by a wave coming in from left field? Personally, not often or even at all. And without warning I find myself being tossed in every which way and I'm trying to swim up stream against the currant. The Struggle is real ya'll.
March left me with a uneasy feeling and April has quickly thrown me for a loop which has left me throwing my white flag up in surrender. At one point I found myself standing in the middle of our yard with my hands in the air as I yelled "Anything else? Seriously God, is there anything else?" - it was totally one of those movie moments when the protagonist finally gives up and falls to their knees in surrender. That has been me within the last month or so. On my knees just waiting to be hit by yet another storm.
And then I began thinking of the story of James and what the first few verses reminds us of...because there I was, head exploding with confusion, anger, disappointment; heart shattered in a billon peaces, yelling out to God and testing him. Anything else? Because my goodness there is only so much a person can handle in a short amount of time. And there was James 1:1-27. And there was God, the bear I was trying to poke, letting me know in his sassiest way possible that he pokes back but with good reason. (Side Note: God and I have a very sassy relationship)
And that is how I'm finding solid ground. Is my ground perfectly solid? Nope, Never. I am not perfect, nor have I ever claimed to be - but knowing that God is the life boat braving the storm to save me is definitely solid ground worthy. I'm still angry, I'm still hurting, I'm still asking "Anything Else," but I'm doing the best that I can. and doing better, trying to do better, is my solid ground. Prayer is my solid ground. Taking a deep breath, is my solid ground. And understanding that things are happening in the way God is setting them before me, is my solid ground. Humbling myself before God, is my solid ground. Humbly accepting the word planted in me, will be my solid ground. So now I'm left with the question "What Now?" - Where do we go from here? What direction am I being led towards? Where will my solid ground take me?
So Brace yourselves Folks, a storm is a Brewin'....
But take a deep breath, plant your feet so far into the earth that you will not be shaken, and if you fall to your knees than you are in the perfect position to pray. Once you're back up on your two feet - find that path, find anything that resembles a solid ground, and run full speed ahead! Grace, Hope, and Love are on the move right beside you. There is always solid ground to be found during a storm. Always.
Love without Expecting, Love without Fear, Love, Love, Love..