Friday, March 2, 2018

Reflection.



This morning I sit in reflection. I am looking back at 365 Days ago when I clocked out of Cosmetology School for the last time. This morning I woke up to throwback pictures and the video of me clocking out. And while it's safe to say I am a mess of tears, they are tears of contentment and celebration. Because I, Ashlee, have survived my 1st year in the Industry. Maybe I'm celebrating too soon. March 28th is the day I got my License so I haven't seen my 1 year quite yet. But still, I am celebrating a year of growth, trial and tribulations, melt-downs, Huge Ups, a growing clientele, mistakes, and amazing lessons learned. It's a year I was so afraid I wouldn't make it through and yet, here I am, still standing.

After Cosmetology School I wrote two posts: Beauty Didn't Change my Life AND 10 things Nobody tells you about Cosmetology School - all about the things I learned along the way of being in school. After re-reading them this morning I still agree whole-heartedly with both posts. But I sparked reflection in me, something I said in my "beauty didn't change my life" post made me stop and really think about the last 365 days. And I'm glad that it did because I don't think I would have remembered to be so grateful for the experience.

365 Days ago I clocked out of Cosmetology School for the last time and it was really emotional for me to do so. I had seen so much change in myself during those 11 months and there is not one thing I would change if I had to do it over again. Today, I'll be spending the day prepping for a wedding I have tomorrow, March 3rd, and it's not my only wedding this month. I knew I wanted in on this part of the industry, one where we as stylist/makeup artists' get the opportunity to be apart of the biggest day of someones life. The happiest day. So when I began booking weddings I felt a sense of pride in myself. I was finally in the middle of right where I wanted to be and I couldn't be more excited. What an honor it is to be in my position. 


A year ago I didn't know what to expect. I had just spent 11 months getting comfortable with myself as a stylist and where I was at the time. And then, I was thrown back out into the world of trying to figure out if I learned enough, studied enough to pass my boards, and could navigate through this industry. It's been scary, it's caused nights of no sleep, nervous breakdowns, it's caused self-doubt and moments of frustration. But it's also been life changing, days of celebrations, hours of learning new things, it's brought me some amazingly loyal clients, and a new found confidence. Safe to say, It's been a hell of a ride. This Industry is truly the Best!

And so, I'm closing this chapter of my life. The one where fear has tried to creep in and steal any drop of confidence that I have. The chapter that was me trying to prove to others that I could do it, the one where I spent nights trying to prove to myself that I could do it. Because I now know that I can do...because I did do it! I got through the hardest parts, school and year 1. I am more ahead of the game that I ever thought I would be. And that's an awesome feeling! But I still know that there is still such a long way to go and that this is just the beginning for me. 365 Days is nothing in comparison to the plans I have for myself in this industry and I can't wait to see what is in store for me next. Stay Tuned...

Be Your Own Kind of Beautiful & Love, Love, Love! 



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