Saturday, December 31, 2016

What a Year it has been: 2016


The question is simple: 
Will you be able to look back on 2016 and Be Proud?

This was a question I was asked out of the blue by a mentor of mine.  At first I paused and looked at them like I didn't understand what they were asking of me. What a bizarre and random question to ask someone. And then I said a quick and stern, HELL YES! "Why," they asked? Again, I paused. 

So here it is:

Since before we even rang in this year, I knew that I wanted 2016 to be the year of Fearless.  My anxiety was at a all time high when we said hello to 2016. I was half way through my 25th year of life, I had a college degree that I didn't have a clue what to do with, and I knew I wanted to start Cosmetology School. And yet, every time I tried to put a foot forward and enroll, something was getting in the way. Life, Bills, Student Loans, Credits, Etc. There was always something. If we are being completely honest here, I spent the first month and a half of 2016 trying not to go Britney Spears VIA 2007. You know, have a public melt down and shave all my hair off? Yup, that Britney. 

One morning I was doing my daily devotional I came across this short and sweet piece of scripture:

That was the moment I fell to my knees, literally, and said "Okay, I give up and I will wait." Of course when it comes to my conversations with the Lord it's more of bickering back and forward. Something like:

"Okay, I give up and I will wait" - ME
"No you Wont, I know you better than that" - LORD
"I'm going to be 26 this year. I am running out of time" - ME
"oohhh 26, you are SO old. JK. You can Wait." - LORD
*Rolls Eyes* - ME

And so, I waited. Only a week Thankfully. And during that week I'm 99% sure the Lord was having a grand ol' time watching me squirm. But when I finally enrolled into Cosmetology School - I walked out to my car and began to sob uncontrollably. Under my breath I muttered something like "Ok, I get it. Thank You," right before I began to make my billion of phone calls to announce my excitement. 

Almost 10 months later and here we are. 365 Days later. I went to school, in which I was absolutely terrified to do so, but thats for another story in which you'll receive soon, and I pushed through all my fears and anxieties to become completely FEARLESS in the year of 2016. I am so beyond proud of the accomplishments I have achieved this year. I am so blessed that I have the support system I have because without them I don't think I would have lasted. 

As I look back on 2016: I smile, laugh, cry, roll my eyes, and sigh. But mostly...I am Proud! What a Year it has been!! 

I'll see you all in 2017 - Let's Do This!