Wednesday, September 9, 2015

I am Continuous.


I try to wake up every morning and have my devotionals be the first thing that I do. It helps me start the day with a clear, positive mind and I am able to keep myself accountable for having my much needed chit-chat time with God.

Labor Day I had to do it a little differently because we woke up so suddenly and went to my parents house to spend the day in the pool. And so,  I opted to do my devotional later that evening. I was exhausted and sun burnt when we returned home, but I grabbed my bible and began to read.

 When I do my devotionals, I start off by reading "Jesus Calling" and I look up the 2-4 verses that each day refers too. I write each verse down in my journal and than I began to dissect what the word is saying and how it applies to my life. and then I have a little extra writing area where I write down the things God and I had a chit-chat about....just for a way to remind myself of each day's convo.  On this particular evening, I was surprised when I went from writing full sentences to just 3 little words in bold:

I AM CONTINUOUS.

I sat there for several minutes trying to figure out why I randomly wrote "I am Continuous" in large font on the bottom of the page. Continuous? That didn't have anything to do with my devotional for the day. I tried to find how the word "Continuous" connected to Isaiah 61:10 and Romans 8:1-2. But I was stuck. and so I closed my journal, set my bible back on my night stand, and laid down to go to sleep. It wasn't much of a surprise when I tossed and turned over the next 15-20 minutes. I glared at the little orange dot on our fan that's next to our bed. "Continuous? Really Dude? Can I call you Dude?" and looked at Speedracer who was so peacefully asleep, he falls asleep faster than a newborn baby. I'm jealous. "Why did you have me write ' I am Continuous'? I am really trying to figure this one out but it's 10:30 and I want to sleep. I'm pissed." and with that I swear I heard "Ashlee Michelle, Go to Sleep. It will makes sense when I want it to make sense"....."You got it, Dude." 

I woke up yesterday morning, tuesday, at 11:30am. What the Heck? I slept good! But now I need to make coffee and do my devotional while my energetic puppy who just slept 14 hours runs around the living room chasing a lemon he got from our lemon tree in the back yard. I grabbed "Jesus Calling", my journal, and devotional. I sat down and began to read. After 45 minutes, my time with the Lord came to an end, I mean, not literally but my devotional study was over. I carried my books back to my room when I tripped over a box. We are moving soon. My bible flew out of my hand and it landed on a page. The first word I see "Continually." It was 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.  and I couldn't help but laugh. "Is this what you meant? That I needed to Pray Continually?"......No Answer. 

And so, I am still here trying to figure out what was so important behind the word's "I am Continuous," and honestly, I am starting to think that I'm never going to get that answer from God. I am starting to think that he is playing one of his tricks on me, you know, the kind that isn't really a trick but he is just trying to teach you something? That one! I am starting to think that every day when I sit down to do my devotional's in hopes to figure out just what " I am continuous" means is just God's way of telling me to stay straight in his word, to be eager to learn more and be more of who he is planning for me to be. I think "I am continuous" can mean a lot of things...and I am excited to see what those things are. 


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